Gone.

The worst feeling ever is when someone close to you, someone you can pretty much call your sister, just leaves without notice or anything. In November one of my best friends left. Her parents shipped her away and there is no way any of us here can talk to her. At first I thought she would come back, I never thought her parents would keep her away from her friends, buh its been over 6 months and no one has still talked to her. Its hard losing a best friend. The only person I knew that would always been down for anything. I could tell her anything and she wouldnt say a word about it. My parents treated her like a daughter. Now that shes gone its hard for me to actually trust people because now I think that once I trust someone there gonna up and leave. Now I have another super close friend, shes like my little sister. I trust her with everything. I call her and shes always willing to go out. I trust her with more stuff than i do with my actually little sister and now i just found out, her parents are going back to the Philippines and they are taking her with them. She leaves in 2 weeks and like everything just feels so out of place. Within a year, im gonna lose 2 people that I can pretty much call my sister. I hate when i become close to someone and them leaving. And its not like I don’t have people I can trust buh I treated them like family.
I thought everything was so perfect like everything fell into place last summer. I had the bestfriend I could call sister. The perfect boyfriend that would make me smile and cheer me up when im down. And around Christmas everything came crashing down. And once I built everything back up where I think everything is back to normal it comes tumbling down. Im just tired of everything. I tired of trying, im tired of fighting through things to make everything better because everytime I fight though an obstacle and everythings better, things end up tumbling down and im back to where I started.
I thought this summer was gonna be the best summer ever because this will be the first summer I have my license and im gonna have my bestfriend there with me. Everything would be all good, but now im gonna hate this summer. I want the pieces in my life to come together like it did last summer because right now everything feels out of place.
I would do anything just so I could go back in time and relive last summer.